Kyan's: 2011

58th - Make you proud of me.

All I want is just making you proud of me.

That's what I asking myself.

Really really really proud of me and happy of me.

That's all.

Don't tell me you are proud of me already.

It's a lie I know.

I've done nothing at all.

Nothing at all.

I'm just being a lover without action.

I want to make you proud of me, like how I'm so proud of you.

57th - One Whole Year Anniversary

Thanks for being my lover.

Thanks for teaching me so much.

Thanks for your tears.

Thanks for your sweat.

Thanks for your saliva.

Thanks for your sweetness.

Thanks for your love.

I love you my dear How Yee.

56th - Dreams.

"Hey girl, what's your dream?"

This phrase came by and revved up my brain

Let me rephrase it.

Hey people, how are you doing and what's in the future?

It means dreams come with life.

What's now and future?

Future depends on now.

Now depends on future.

What you are thinking maybe what you thought;

what you thought maybe what you are thinking.

Present determines the future;

Future made from present.

Am I making sense?

I'm just trying to say that

what you think and do now may affect our future;

Our future and dream whether or not achieved is lay on our hand now in reality.

Act and achieved.

Blur and failed.

And one thing,

stay still is different from doing nothing.

Not think before you act,

is think while you are acting.

55th - Cockroach

Cockroach.

It just crawl over my left feet.

DAMN GELI WEI!!!!!!!!!!!!

53rd - Appreciation.

the most heartmelting phase I've ever heard,

I love you the most.

the most motivating phase I've ever heard,

I'm always by your side.

the most meaningful word I've ever heard,

anything.

the most depressing word I've ever heard,

disappointed.

52nd - Me, about me.

It was form 2.

My mind now is still stay the same at that level.

I hardly "dont think much, just go ahead".

But I did.

Some say it's thrilling, some say it's tragedy.

What I found is, way beyond expectation.

Before,

I'm selfish and naive.

Now,

I'm naive, selfish,

and not determined.

Before,

I'll ignore and forget.

Now,

I'll dream, insist,

and afraid.

I could not handle.

Absolutely not a multitasker.

"Don't think too much, just go ahead"

I thought I could.

But worsen instead.

Saying that I'm improving.

But bullshiting instead.

Thought I could love you.

But you're exhausted instead.

51st - Days and nights.

Through the time we spent together,

I fell deeper, deep down to the core.

For once I was mesmerized by my own fantasy,

sleeping in the nest of daydream for years,

now you brought me back to my real life.

Now I see the world.

You taught me strength, optimistic and love,

how I need them to expand my vision,

how I need them to go on.

Go on our journey side by side.

Till now,

Unit trust is still amusing,

reminding me about the same old thinking of us.

Durian pancakes, durian cendol and durian ice-cream.

Now even sushi has appeared on my foods-I-like-menu.

What's next?

I love you, Michelle Phang.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
'Til I find somebody new