58th - Make you proud of me.

All I want is just making you proud of me.

That's what I asking myself.

Really really really proud of me and happy of me.

That's all.

That's all.

Don't tell me you are proud of me already.

It's a lie I know.

I've done nothing at all.

Nothing at all.

I'm just being a lover without action.

I want to make you proud of me, like how I'm so proud of you.

57th - One Whole Year Anniversary

Thanks for being my lover.

Thanks for teaching me so much.

Thanks for your tears.

Thanks for your sweat.

Thanks for your saliva.

Thanks for your sweetness.

Thanks for your love.

I love you my dear How Yee.

56th - Dreams.

"Hey girl, what's your dream?"

This phrase came by and revved up my brain

Let me rephrase it.

Hey people, how are you doing and what's in the future?

It means dreams come with life.

What's now and future?

Future depends on now.

Now depends on future.

What you are thinking maybe what you thought;

what you thought maybe what you are thinking.

Present determines the future;

Future made from present.

Am I making sense?

I'm just trying to say that

what you think and do now may affect our future;

Our future and dream whether or not achieved is lay on our hand now in reality.

Act and achieved.

Blur and failed.

And one thing,

stay still is different from doing nothing.

Not think before you act,

is think while you are acting.

55th - Cockroach

Cockroach.

It just crawl over my left feet.

DAMN GELI WEI!!!!!!!!!!!!

54th - Better.

I'm good now. =)

53rd - Appreciation.

the most heartmelting phase I've ever heard,

I love you the most.

the most motivating phase I've ever heard,

I'm always by your side.

the most meaningful word I've ever heard,

anything.

the most depressing word I've ever heard,

disappointed.

52nd - Me, about me.

It was form 2.

My mind now is still stay the same at that level.

I hardly "dont think much, just go ahead".

But I did.

Some say it's thrilling, some say it's tragedy.

What I found is, way beyond expectation.

Before,

I'm selfish and naive.

Now,

I'm naive, selfish,

and not determined.

Before,

I'll ignore and forget.

Now,

I'll dream, insist,

and afraid.

I could not handle.

Absolutely not a multitasker.

"Don't think too much, just go ahead"

I thought I could.

But worsen instead.

Saying that I'm improving.

But bullshiting instead.

Thought I could love you.

But you're exhausted instead.

51st - Days and nights.

Through the time we spent together,

I fell deeper, deep down to the core.

For once I was mesmerized by my own fantasy,

sleeping in the nest of daydream for years,

now you brought me back to my real life.

Now I see the world.

You taught me strength, optimistic and love,

how I need them to expand my vision,

how I need them to go on.

Go on our journey side by side.

Till now,

Unit trust is still amusing,

reminding me about the same old thinking of us.

Durian pancakes, durian cendol and durian ice-cream.

Now even sushi has appeared on my foods-I-like-menu.

What's next?

I love you, Michelle Phang.

50th - The Blower's Daughter.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

49th - Ideas

ideas ideas ideas in my mind.

some workable, some are not.

i couldn't take them out because they are highly adaptive,

squeezing my brain to maximize it's function.

to think, is my daily routine.

but at least now i'm thinking rationally. not something stupid.

entrepreneur. i wanna call myself.

48th - Malacca

Broga's Wantan Mee

Seremban

Nbu's house(outside)

Air Molek Beach

Rojak & Curry Mee

Red House Muzium

St. Paul's Church

A' Famosa

Bird Nest Soup

Brands Outlet

Flor De La Mar Muzium

Melaka River Cruise

Jonker Street

Lup Lup Chicken Rice

Mua Chi

Durian Cendol

Maggi Goreng by Sg. Melaka

Ferris Wheel

what else do i miss?

photo credit to lechua@lechuaphotography.com

47th - As I live...

I find out more

as light of the world shine and reach my windows.

I thought of having Mcdeluxe

but maggi goreng telur mata is more attractive.

I'm seeking my way out from routine

therefore I'm flying to Penang for food and Kuching for music next year.

I want to be adventurous

due to the my megacuriousness towards the unexplored world.

I need some unusual experiences

to enlarge my pupils,

to clear off my ears,

to stuff myself with ideas,

to prolong my lifespan,

to present my stories proudly.

I want an attractive yet adventurous stories for myself.

I'm doing my best.

p.s. : i love Nbu.

46th - Up & Down

Amazing how we got this far,

it's been months since we met.

Laughter and tears,

we been through.

PjuNbu & laoban beishu,

hilarious and heart-warming.

Brogo hill, Repunzel, nightview and shisa,

it's too difficult to not missing you,

because projections of our memories

are playing in my mind every night.

45th - Organise.

There are some changes in my life now.

Uncertainty, they may lead to.

But I believe the bad feeling wont last for long,

Because we can adapt.

44th - Cannonball by Damien Rice.

There’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
There’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
It’s still a little hard to say what's going on

There’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
There’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can´t say what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
There’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can´t see what´s going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So its not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon.

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage, teach me to be shy
'Cause its not hard to fall,
And I don't want to scare her
Its not hard to fall
And i don't want to lose
Its not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

43th - Carnation.

42nd - Holiday.

4-day holiday started.

Before that, someone asked me

someone : so. how ya gonna spend your holiday man?

kyan : how? i got no plan. any suggestion?

someone : you bullshit! at least plan ONE thing right?

kyan : aiks.......

therefore,

1st day - Shopping

2nd day - Broga Hill, Haircut

3rd day - Mooncake Festival

4th day - Supper with ol'friends

Brilliant me!!!

got it from MidValley today. =)

41st - Vacation. Please?

Give me a beach and i will give you my body.

deal?

40th - 不安

今天

总觉得不安的

心就是啰啰孪

不爽的感觉就是了

这种感觉

从以前就渐渐侵入我的心了

但这一次就特别的强烈

好事近?

Roar!

I just hate this uneasy feeling

Being disturb since evening

Take a deep breath

I can banish it.

39th - OH shit!!!!!!

for the very third time,

I have everything to attribute

but it's not the time yet.

Hold on to myself.